But that, of course is why I was interested in writing a book about Lawrence: to enable me to pass into the realm of complete disinterest. Lawrence said that one sheds one's sickness in books; I would say that one sheds one's interest. Once I have finished this book on Lawrence, depend upon it, I will have no interest in him whatsoever. One begins writing a book about something because one is interested in that subject; one finishes writing a book in order to lose interest in that subject; the book itself is a record of this transition.
If I didn't write this book I would probably go on being interested in Lawrence for the rest of my days. He would gnaw away at me. I would always be curious about Women in Love, would always be looking out for new books about Lawrence, would always be making notes about Lawrence or thinking that I might one day write a book about him, whereas once I have finished this book -- if I can force myself to retain interest in Lawrence for long enough to complete it -- Lawrence will become a closed book for me. That's what I look forward to: no longer having anything to do with Lawrence.